I am ME

what are we made of? for me it is the places i have been, up roads and down roads on a twist and turn of life filled adventure and experience that makes up each strand of my body. all different. all unique. all me. inspired by what got me here. where i am now. where i have been. the things i have seen. the things i have not. my dreams. those for myself keep me questioning. those for my son keep me pushing through. whatever stands in my way. always is easier for me to do for others than for myself. but that is me and who i am. the shirt off my back could be yours if you are my friend. i would do that. so this is me. in an array of color that makes up one person. each representing something unlike and similar to someone else. the same and different. the here and the not. the girl in the woman that is made up of me.

when it rains it pours....

Ok...ever wonder what it would look like if your ceiling just decided to fall?
Well, I can tell you...it looks something like this


look closely, (these are cell phone pics so kinda blurry) at the green apples on the floor. just bought those bastards that night. ruined. the bowl they were in..ruined. the leather couch...scratched to hell. tv...scratched. girl sleeping on the couch...thank god she left twenty minutes before. and thank god nick and i got out of the chair sitting in the far right corner. my dog is permanent tramatized, i think.



a repairman showed up w/ a hammer and ladder and said he came to repair my ceiling. i still don't know what he thought that hammer was going to fix. he needed an army.

needlesstosay, i am so looking forward to the big icestorm that is headed our way.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day Everyone!!!!

Maddax and I had a pretty cool Valentine's. He was so excited to give me my valentine from him. It was the cutest thing ever. I felt so special, really...it made my day. On the other hand...



That dog is one of the presents I got him. Oh, he was not impressed. Told me he did not want that dog. Not being mean, but he just didn't want it. He is blessed with such a unique personality. Later we went and ate at some friends house and were entertained with hours of basketball. My child is like a box of energy.

So these are my celebrity look alikes:








Y'ALL KNOW I LOOK LIKE BEYONCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just Because He's the Love of My Life

still here

yes, i am still here. i think i may become a permanent hospital fixture soon, though. we are all well and "hangin in there." best cliche for the circumstance. i am thankful my precious little boy is okay. the lord giveth and the lord taketh...this we must not forget. what happens when you don't have a support system because you are the support system? when the support system needs a support system. i don't know yet...we are working on that answer. the support system is being rebuilt from the ground up it seems, but i am "hangin in there" (ya, the cliche again) and we shall see how all that goes. god keep your arms around momma, mom and my baby maddax always.