so so long ago....

i used to post on here every day, but have not in quiet some time. it seems that after making some very nervous and difficult choices in my life all that used to spark my mind is slowing seeping back in. maybe it is a sign or some type of lesson to NOT live your life with those that slowly and ultimately cause it to seep away. maybe i am weak in the mind for letting this happen. i cannot know that or have known that, but just find it ironic that i have not felt compelled to write or paint or sing or dance or be until now.