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MADDAX

I thought these pictures were so precious. Maddax is usually just the happiest little boy and so full of life. The way it makes me feel to watch him I just don't think I can put into words. It would be a total understatement. He is a true blessing from God. Even when he is disagreeable and wild and driving me up the wall, I can take a couple of deep breaths and look at him and forget that a few seconds ago he spilled milk all over the floor and did a flip in the bathtub and flooded it and ate a crumby toptart in my bed and trampled through the house with dirty shoes and two dirty dogs when I just cleaned the floor. His happiness is just so much more important than any amount of dirt or any sized spill. I am so happy that he is mine. My little poo.

WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP

i got up at 4:00 am so i could read. i haven't gotten up that early to read or do anything else in years. hello, old life-new life. i dread you. i don't really want to go to school, honestly. i want to do what i want to do and i really don't feel like i need any more education to do it, but it is hard to convince people in hiring positions to believe that i can do anything and everything i want as long as i get some sort of enjoyment or satisfaction out of it. i wish i was one of those people that gets shit handed to them. you know, the ones who claim to work their way to the top, but really someone sat them up there and said go for it. i am not one of those. life isn't fair, i know that and accept it gladly. and no, i don't have it so bad, so yes, i should quit complaining...blah blah blah. i am not complaining. just a small aside to what i WAS writing about. getting up and reading at 4:00am for school, which i am attending to HOPEFULLY, increase the mileage of my checking account and make life somewhat EASIER. hmmm....if it were up to me and i guess it is i would teach. i would teach and be poor. i would be a poor teacher. i would actually be a poor college professor. i would honestly without a doubt love to be a poor art teacher.

(the word poor in use with ALL its meaning...opinion coming from the attitudes of most, but NOT ALL, teachers i have come in contact with. DEFINITELY not all. i think most are just big ass complainers. the best teachers i ever had, well lets just say, you knew they liked their jobs. on the other hand, you knew the ones that didn't. and for the record, yes...TEACHERS ARE UNDERPAID, but they are not the only ones.)

i also want to be a movie star when i grow up.

i am still here. preparing for what is to come. so much is changing. i have a new precious nephew, wesley (sweettooth has photos on her blog) my home computer is once again not working properly so i can't post photos. i have a new cousin, grace. congrats to my sis, adam & lindsey. i start grad school in two weeks. maddax starts baseball next week. oh and yes, he started "big" school. like i said, pics yes, but the computer...we have to be at school by 7:40 and i have to be at work at 8:00. my 10 year reunion is coming up also. gosh, i am really getting old.

i don't know if this is where i thought i would be 10 years ago. i don't remember really where i thought i would, but this place feels pretty good. yes, there are some minor tweaks or changes i would make, but overall...even with all the hustle and bustle and school tardies and speeding tickets and school loans lurking up from behind and grass that needs to be mowed and dogs that need to go to the vet and bills that need to be paid and anti-sippy cup and anti-sleep in mommy's bed training that needed to begin a year ago and didn't and new car i want to buy and new house i need to buy and money i have saved to do both and money i have not saved to do both and huge collection of jewelry i am obsessed with buying and huge amount of it i have lost and pretzel crumbs under the bed and paintings i do not paint and movies not taken back to blockbuster on time and clothes left in the washer all day and iron and coffee pot both still on at 6:00 in the afternoon...i am in my place

yes, i will try to update more often and w/ more photos.