WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP

i got up at 4:00 am so i could read. i haven't gotten up that early to read or do anything else in years. hello, old life-new life. i dread you. i don't really want to go to school, honestly. i want to do what i want to do and i really don't feel like i need any more education to do it, but it is hard to convince people in hiring positions to believe that i can do anything and everything i want as long as i get some sort of enjoyment or satisfaction out of it. i wish i was one of those people that gets shit handed to them. you know, the ones who claim to work their way to the top, but really someone sat them up there and said go for it. i am not one of those. life isn't fair, i know that and accept it gladly. and no, i don't have it so bad, so yes, i should quit complaining...blah blah blah. i am not complaining. just a small aside to what i WAS writing about. getting up and reading at 4:00am for school, which i am attending to HOPEFULLY, increase the mileage of my checking account and make life somewhat EASIER. hmmm....if it were up to me and i guess it is i would teach. i would teach and be poor. i would be a poor teacher. i would actually be a poor college professor. i would honestly without a doubt love to be a poor art teacher.

(the word poor in use with ALL its meaning...opinion coming from the attitudes of most, but NOT ALL, teachers i have come in contact with. DEFINITELY not all. i think most are just big ass complainers. the best teachers i ever had, well lets just say, you knew they liked their jobs. on the other hand, you knew the ones that didn't. and for the record, yes...TEACHERS ARE UNDERPAID, but they are not the only ones.)

i also want to be a movie star when i grow up.