other people make me feel like somewhere down the road i have failed.

or failed them.
there is something they tried to find for me.
they didn't find it.
its that my fault?
what if i found it myself?
happiness is not something someone can give you.
you only acheive it yourself.
i cannot make up for mistakes that you made.
you cannot live through me.
i am not yours to guide or choose or direct.
i am my own.
you may join me.
you may not take me.
i have to get there myself.
if i am there.
you should be happy.
or do people just envy happy?

what do you do when the one you help is helped?
i still need you.
just not in that way.
show me you can learn from me.

or are you waiting.
for the disaster.
the i fucked up.
the walls to fall.
the i told you so.

the lose all.
the gain all.
importance.

i have failed you.
your eye of me.